The Passion Path: Don’t Forget Your Why…

The Why… The reason that brought you to where you are. That feeling in your heart. In your gut. In your entire being. It makes your heart swell and your eyes dilate and the emotions wash over you like your whole body is filled with this sense of knowing. The sense that this is why you are here. This is what you what were made for. You know regardless of any logic or reasoning; that you are doing precisely what you were created to do.

If you are blessed enough to be one of those who has found your passion in life …. that thing, that someone, that experience, or that place, group or hobby – you know that nothing compares. Nothing can light you up the way that this does. It pumps through your veins and fills you with life affirming energy that spills out into everything you do.

Choosing this life – the passion path – is such an honour. Once you see it; no, once you feel it, it’s like you don’t have an option. It has called upon you. It has shown you the way from existing to living. This is a place there is no coming back from. And you wouldn’t have it any other way. The life you led before seemed to exist in a parallel universe. To another person, in another time. When you choose the passion path you are reborn. You’re awake. Alive. Fulfilled.

This path is simple to choose. But this path is not easy. It takes your all. Your full heart. Everything is amplified. You feel everything so intensely. You experience in technicolour. Your sensations are heightened. Your pleasure centres full. You breathe in its intensity and exude out its light and essence.

But when you truly give something your all, when you invest all that time, that energy, that power, that force, THAT LOVE… When you have this passion ignited inside of you, it also has the times where it’s beautiful intensity is what burns. It can be your unravelling. It can be your pain. Your breaking point. Your undoing.

The passion path is beautiful. It is for the courageous. It is for the inspired. The living. So when it is not going as you hoped, not as you had dreamed; Remember that along with the sheer wonder and beauty that this passion brings, it would not be so without it’s ability to scold you at times. It’s wondrous intensity goes both ways.

And in these times when your passion breaks you down; in this time when you lose your centre and understanding of how you came to be on this path. When all your sensations are overloaded and the senses are blurred – ¬†this is when you go back to your WHY…Why you chose a life of living over a life of existing.

And allow it to ignite you over and over again.

Love always, Michelle xx

PS This passage was inspired by my father. Growing up, I could never understand why my father made many decisions that he did. Why he chose to spend all his time on the land with his cattle. Why he invested all of his time, energy and money into this part of his world that not only did I not really appreciate, I felt took away from his time with me. Over the years I resented this. I took it to mean I was not loved or important. I created my own set of beliefs around how this placed me in the world.

But now as I unravel all of my limiting beliefs and fearful perceptions and heal my relationship with myself and hence those around me, I can really see this for what it is. The most amazing gift my Dad could have given me. The understanding of passion and devotion to the parts of your world that light you up. That thing or person, that no matter how anyone else sees or experiences it – it doesn’t matter. It brings you joy, growth and understanding of your place in this world.

So thank you Dad for inspiring me to live my life with passion. To go for it when no one else gets it. Thank you for showing me that no matter how hard it appears to get, that without passion igniting my world, I would be purely existing. Not living.

Thank you for showing me what it takes to believe in myself despite all the odds and how to rise up again and again. Thank you for showing me how to love.

I love you. Happy Fathers Day.

Michelle xxx

 

 

I Told You So – Sincerely, Your Intuition

And then as ‘they’ say, eventually you just get it. The realization doesn’t make everything better. It doesn’t take away the challenges of life. But one day when you’ve just had enough of feeling sad and hurt and down, you make the courageous decision to just let it go. Set it free. Decide to stop beating yourself and others up that things didn’t work out how you thought they should and you just decide to let it all be.¬†

For my challenges have never been with anyone else anyway. They’ve always been with myself.
I have been so unbelievably flat of late. You know those periods in life where you don’t even want to be around yourself. Frustrated at feeling lost, confused at why… nothing was making sense to me. So I ran to the familiar. I ran to what I know. But that didn’t match up either, because the truth is I’ve changed. I mean I’m continually changing; let’s call this one an actual baseline shift. And boy was I fighting this one!
Pellowah. I attribute a great deal of this particular shift to you coming in to my life in a stage where I had already set the scene. I can not explain it but on one level I knew I needed this course in my life. So I go along. I’m attuned. And from then, two weeks ago until, honestly, today – I haven’t known what the fuck was going on with me. Inspired yet more scared than ever. In love yet more guarded. Heightened awareness yet so mind boggling confused I couldn’t even decide what to eat for dinner.
But I’ve been shifting. My sense of intuition was blossoming and because I have always squashed it down to make room for the 16 billion emotions I can experience in any given day, I didn’t know what to make of it. My soul was all like ‘Heyyyyyyyy I’m finally rising to the top and now you’re going to hear me whether you think you’re ready or not!’
Funnily, but never surprisingly, signs about intuition have been going off like little fire crackers all around me. I started to visualise things during Reiki but couldn’t quite work them out (hint don’t try it makes them go away or get foggier). I have been acting upon contacting some people when they come into my field of vision and I’ve been on the money every time. I was randomly gifted a mauve opsidium crystal (known for aiding in accessing and strengthening your connection with intuition) by a customer at work upon mentioning I also do energy healing. My mentor wrote this brilliant article on further developing intuition – take a read.
People kept telling me to listen to my gut (almost daily by different people, even strangers) and a package I received in the mail told me to ensure I keep my third eye open. Synchronisities my friends. This is not by chance or coincidence. Themes in life always happen for a reason.
So I was trying to make sense of all of this. But more so than ever, rather than go inward to look for the answer, I externalised. I fought for love in places it wasn’t freely given. I pushed away others that were trying to be there. I asked my oracle cards questions every opportunity I had. I asked everyone for advice. I struggled to write a blog post (normally you can’t stop me!) I went down into the emotions and searched desperately for someone or something to pull me out. Patterns I have done before.
But this time was different. This time that little voice inside was louder than ever and this time it was pushing back. And it was stating that this time it has had enough! It knows it’s shit and I better start listen to it in order to get the life I want to lead. This intensity will remain in and all around me now until I surrender. Surrender to myself.
It’s quite mind boggling really. The only thing between us and the life we desire is ourselves. No one and nothing else. With each decision to be true to you, your power grows. And as Eryka says in the above article; sometimes it’s really bloody inconvenient. But I am clearly finding the price I have and continue to pay when I don’t listen far outweighs a little bit of perceived inconvenience.
So yeah. It’s a pretty big time for me right now. And I tell you what, it seems to me there’s a necessary shift happening in many of us. The collective consciousness. It’s an exciting time to be alive and I for one am honoured to be a part of it all.
Raise it up folks!
Love and light, Michelle xx