This, right here and now, is my maiden blog post. I am jumping head first into the world of blogging with little knowledge and experience but with copious enthusiasm and heart. How I do most things in life. For me this is another important life adventure that I feel my collective experiences of my 31 years on this earth has led me to. I guess you call that fate.
So what is this blog for? Essentially this blog is for me. A way for myself as a single mum of two insanely awesome children to document, discover and explore myself both inside and outside of parenthood and other relationships. I find writing allows me to express my thoughts and feelings before I have the opportunity to filter myself. It’s an honest take on where I am at before the more rigid conscious kicks in and tells me what I think I should be feeling or saying.
But why blog? Now clearly, I am no psychologist. Saying that, I am an expert in myself. So I decided on this step as I feel part of my journey is learning to have a voice. To back myself in what I feel I need. And right now and beyond I chose to be open and unapologetically me. This is a life long struggle, that I am only now willing to embrace and change. Now, I am not giving out all the nitty gritty and personal details of myself, my kids and my friends – well at least without their permission anyway – but I want to be vulnerable. As I believe in vulnerability, there is great courage and freedom.
Most of my journey has been me fumbling around in life trying to figure out the answer to the age-old question….Why exactly am I here? I believe everyone has a place, a purpose, a reason for their existence. Some choose to explore this, some do not. Whichever way you go, I guess that is the right path for you. I however am, and always have been searching for something else. I have never felt settled, comfortable, or proud of where I am at in life at any particular time.
So hello world! Here I am. No apologies. No more hiding away to protect myself from living and life. I always thought the pain of putting myself out there and being rejected would be the worst. The truth is, not accepting myself has hurt me the most. So come on my journey. Share yours. Lets come together and begin to realise we are all awesome in our own ways. We all deserve to be seen and heard for exactly who we are. We are all safe and loved.
Come with me and lets start living our lives exactly as we choose to do. Lets live! No more excuses! The journey started at birth – or beyond depending on your beliefs – so lets embrace it, warts and all, starting right now!
Much love Michelle xxx